The Next Step

So a few months ago I posted a blog about the Kissing Tree.  You can read it here.

My husband, Matt, and I have been trying to have a child for two and half years.  Back last summer/fall, we decided to wait until the first of the year and start seriously looking into/pursuing adoption.  

When we made the decision to wait, I thought, "January is months away.  We've got time."

November came.  I thought, "Well, we still have a couple of months."

December came.  I thought, "Okay. Wow.  That was fast, but it's not January yet."

Today is January 21st (as I'm writing this).  January is here.  It's time.

We announced at church last week our intentions to adopt.  We have done some research in the last week.  

We started researching, and let me tell you.  What I found absolutely terrifies me.  

It's one thing to get pregnant, right?  That's your child.  Yeah, having a child is expensive.  

But then you start looking into adoption.  It isn't just trying to get pregnant and having a child.  

It's willfully seeking out a child to love as your own.  

And it is expensive.

I'll just tell you.  I've felt the call to adopt since my teenage years.  I have pictured my family with a little African American boy in it for so long now it's hard to remember when I got that  desire/vision.  I shared that desire with my husband.  He suggested adopting an little Asian girl as well.  What a beautiful, colorful family we would have, right?  Placed together by God's design.

We are seriously looking into adoption and all the hard work that entails.  We have fundraisers planned and friends and family right along side us, blessing us more than they could ever know.  

I ask for your prayers in the coming days, that God would lead us to the right places, to make the right connections, to say yes at the right times.

I know God is moving in us.  To even be able to continue moving forward with how overwhelmed and scared we are is a miracle in itself.  

I don't know what my forever family will look like.  I don't know if it will include a little black boy or a little asian girl.  But I know that we are going to follow God's leading every step of the way.  I know that God is going to provide each dollar needed for the crazy process.  I am trusting Him to give us the child He has had planned for us since the beginning of time.

Adoption to me isn't second best.  It is God's plan for us.  

I ask that if you or someone you know is considering adoption, please reach out to us.  Our God is able to make those connections I would never even have thought possible.  

Thanks for reading.  

In God, 
Emily